MARIAS Exclusive: Report from Britain-loving Secret Ex Muslim (Apostate) Woman Living in London

MARIAS Exclusive: Report from Britain-loving Secret Ex Muslim (Apostate) Woman Living in London

Here is a report sent to MARIAS from Murtada, a 21 year old secret ex Muslim (Apostate) still living at home in the London Area …

“Islam makes it very clear the contempt
and hatred it has for the non believers.”

Growing up in an Islamic household I knew from a young age that it wasn’t normal to live the way we did. Even though my parents had ‘assimilated into British society’ and I use that in quotes because there was still this very strong aspect of Islamic culture in the background of whatever we did or could do.

Growing up I was told that Allah and Mohamad come before anyone or anything. That we must always be faithful to God because he will be the judge of us in the after life, and if he wasn’t pleased, it would be a one way ticket to hell. (Or if you’re lucky maybe Allah might forgive you eventually and send you to heaven so you can be with your husband, who’s being kept busy by his 72 virgins till then).

On one hand I was being told that Allah loves us all and wants the best for us but on the other hand I was being told that Allah hates those who disbelieve in him, disobey him, question him, commit haram acts just in order to fit into kuffar (derogatory term for non Muslims) society and there will be a fit punishment for those people.

Now as you can imagine this confused me greatly, and I really started to struggle with holding onto my Muslim identity and my English identity. I couldn’t seem to find a way to make them both work together. It felt as if it was either I had to choose Islam or choose the dirty kuffar lifestyle. Because Islam makes it very clear the contempt and hatred it has for the non believers.

So I really started to feel like I was living in two worlds.

You’re never taught to
question, you just accept …

One world in which I could be me with my close friends, a free young English woman of Pakistani heritage, loving England for it has been the only home I’ve ever known. I could be interested in boys, make up, cute clothes, just be a normal teenager. Sadly the other world at home, which was my reality, I was a Muslim girl, who’s thoughts and questions were dismissed simply because I had a vagina. I was told to keep myself dressed modestly in front of my father or any male relatives at all times, I was told that I’m a pearl, that must be protected at all costs.

My father has a favourite saying ‘women should be seen and not heard’. I later realised the reasons for why I was treated this way; Sharia Law and Islam.

I remember thinking: Why do we need to have another law when we have the law of the land in England? Why does sharia law supersede any other law? Should there not be one law for all? It makes so much sense when you think about it, but Muslims have a way of playing the race card against them. I used to do this myself. I didn’t know any different at the time.

If someone said anything against Islam you could just scream “Islamophobia!” and automatically people will side with you in fear of not wanting to be seen as racist. I started to struggle with self harm and suicidal thoughts which made me question god’s existence, something that you mustn’t even admit out loud in a Muslim household.

Again, you’re never taught to question, you just accept what you’ve been told because hey it’s magic sky daddy’s AKA Allah’s word over yours. So whenever I would question my father about Islam, about the violent passages he would just try and justify them or brush over them. (I’ve learnt now that it’s a tactic called taqiyya, which Muslims can do in order to protect the image of Islam.)

I asked him about verse 4:34 Surah an Nisa in the Quran, why does it say that you’re allowed to beat your wife if she doesn’t do what you ask of her? His response ‘Allah has given men a hand over women. They are stronger and more emotionally mature. Plus it doesn’t say to beat her hard, just enough so she can learn from her mistake’.

Hearing this made me physically sick and angry, how could he say that? Does he not care or love his daughters? Of course not because he has no issue beating their mum in front of them and calling her names such as bitch, whore, slut, useless, animal etc. From that moment on I lost a big chunk of faith in Allah.

“Apostates like myself can be
executed for leaving Islam.”

All the talks about Islam and Mohamad being so “feminist,” meant nothing.

However I still couldn’t let go of Allah until a few years later because I was so heavily indoctrinated. Sharia law ruins the lives of women, gays and minorities. It’s beyond medieval and has no place in a country like Great Britain.

In sharia law men can marry up to 4 women, women can be stoned to death if found guilty of adultery. People who have sex outside of marriage can be stoned or lashed to death. Gays can be thrown off roof top buildings, men can beat their wives. Apostates like myself can be executed for leaving Islam. You can be whipped if you say anything that’s considered blasphemous. Non Muslims have to pay Jizya, which is a tax for not practicing Islam. I mean this is a real threat. It’s not a joke.

I certainly wouldn’t expect to feel safe speaking out as an ex Muslim in Pakistan but I should be able to feel safe in my own country, should I not? Especially in a democracy like ours. We all know that sharia councils exist in the UK but they’re functioning undercover, I’m sure police know about them too but are too afraid to do anything all in the name of political correctness.

There are certain cultures and religions that just do not belong in a western civilisation. There are some cultures that will not benefit you in any way. And it certainly does not make you racist to say that. I mean look at Europe; Sweden, Germany, France. They’re committing national suicide. Women are being gang raped, murdered, natives of those lands are afraid to leave their own homes.

These so called refugees are nothing but scum. They’re not fleeing any war they are just economical migrants looking to start a better life. They come from countries that are run by sharia law. These men have the mindset that women belong in the kitchen, they need to be covered or she is asking for it, that they need to listen to the men in their family because they are in charge. A woman must never be seen with a male who’s not a relative or she will be destroying the families honour. But the men can fuck all the kuffar women because well they’re whores in their eyes, they’re easy, dirty, cheap and mean nothing to them.

“Islam … has done nothing but ruin lives.”

This is the mindset that even British Muslims share.

Pakistani grooming gangs have targeted all white girls for those very reasons I’ve listed. I know what this culture is like and the way these people think. Islam has corrupted their mind. Of course we shouldn’t take away someone’s freedom to believe in Allah or sharia law but when their choice to believe in something starts affecting the lives of millions of innocent people, we need to put a foot down and say enough is enough.

I do not want this country to be destroyed. We are far too great of a nation to pander to this barbaric 7th century ideology that has done nothing but ruin lives.

When we say no to sharia; we say yes to seeing women and minorities as humans and treating them accordingly.

(Real name withheld)

Toni Bugle vs Kate Smurthwaite: UK to ban “harmful” gender “stereotypes” in adverts

Toni Bugle vs Kate Smurthwaite: UK to ban “harmful” gender “stereotypes” in adverts

The UK government is planning to ban advertisements it deems to have “harmful” gender stereotypes.

Excerpts from transcript:

Toni Bugle: I don’t think banning adverts is going to create the next scientist … If you want to create scientists, they have an education at school to do that.

Kate Smurthwaite: The scientific evidence does show that young children don’t actually have a particular preference. Boys don’t go for trains. Girls don’t go for dolls. Those ideas (preferences) … are picked up from the environment.

RT host: Sweden has rejected a proposal for a ban on gender stereotypes in advertisements saying it would harm freedom of expression … Do they have a point? … Is this a case of a minority putting (i.e. imposing) their views on a majority?

Kate Smurthwaite: Gender stereotyping is simply the act of presenting women as suitable for a certain set of roles and men as suitable for a different set of roles. It seems quite obvious to me that in 2018 the time has come to move beyond that.

Toni Bugle: It’s down to parents to show children …. you can do anything you want to do, if you want to be a mechanic, be a mechanic.

Kate Smurthwaite: This isn’t the state coming around to your house and saying don’t you do this job or don’t you do this job … the state already regulates advertising very heavily … making sure it’s accurate … to make sure it’s not lewd and lascivious, to make sure it’s not full of nasty sterotypes about people based on their race … and there’s absolutely no reason in 2018 why it shouldn’t step in and say let’s make that our advertising also doesn’t promote these outdated gender stereotypes.

Toni Bugle: … You’re a disgrace to women and feminism.



Toni Bugle tells Salman Butt: Islamic State orphans need less Islam, not more

Toni Bugle tells Salman Butt: Islamic State orphans need less Islam, not more

“Daddy was a martyr”

Toni Bugle: … these children need to be taught how to love again … I imagine that’s something they know very little about. It’s no good … (being raised by someone who’s) taught you that killing is normal.

Toni Bugle: … ISIS is to blame for this. Extremism is to blame for this. The parents who were extreme in their beliefs are to blame for this … teaching these children that their parents are “martyrs” … that isn’t “Western intervention’s” doing. That was the doing of those who were extreme.

Salman Butt: According to empirical studies it is Western intervention that was a catalyst for all of this.

Toni Bugle: (sarcastically) The West are always to blame, aren’t they? … It’s almost like you’re not willing to take responsibility within your own (Muslim) communities that there’s radicalisation going on …

Toni Bugle: We have to deal with the fact that (Islamic) radicalisation is happening all over the country (i.e. the UK) … (but) you don’t want to take any responsibility when you have the (Islamic) verses of the sword … This is what these children have been taught.

Salman Butt: They’re taught that because when a people are under threat of being wiped out, then the people who talk the toughest game, they rise to prominence. A well-rounded Islamic identity is actually a “firewall”, a preventative measure to political violence.

Toni Bugle: They need LESS Islam, not more of it.


Toni Bugle vs Talha Ahmad: Islamic radicalisation of UK school kids? Muslim community evading responsibility?

Toni Bugle vs Talha Ahmad: Islamic radicalisation of UK school kids? Muslim community evading responsibility?

Toni Bugle (MARIAS, Mothers Against Radical Islam & Sharia) debates Talha Ahmad (Muslim Council of Britain) on RT.

Toni Bugle: Whenever anyone says anything about it, the first thing we’re told is that we’re “Islamophobic”.

Talha Ahmad: We have to be extremely careful that we do not create a condition and a narrative in which all Muslims are seen as suspect … There is no link to show that devout Muslims suddenly becomes a terrorist or vice versa.

Toni Bugle: … I don’t think it’s “all Muslims” … Why is the Muslim community not doing more to challenge this? Why is it they’re not cleaning up their own backyard? … It’s not my fault that these people (the extremists) see themselves as being Muslims and will do this in the name of Islam …

Talha Ahmad: … We, as a (Muslim) community, has no greater responsibility than any other section of the society …

Toni Bugle: … Yes, you do.


Jade, 14 years old, escapes Muslim gang rape. Police & Social Services no help AT ALL.

Seven years ago, when she was 14 years old, Jade was sexually harassed, intimidated, humiliated and almost raped by a local gang of Muslims.

Police and Social Services provided zero assistance.

Thankfully, she escaped, but — as the above map shows — many, many other innocent British girls have not. In fact the above map is just the tip of the iceberg.

“… police, social services … did not help at all. And because of this, multiple girls have been abused and raped by this gang time and time again,” writes Jade.

She briefly shares her personal story with MARIAS.

Thank you for your resilience and courage, Jade. And for joining the effort to  put an end this travesty.

I wanted to write a message to get my point across. Yes, everyone knows it happens with white men . But grooming gangs of Muslim descent are a whole lot different. There’s more than one man, there are many, many men that pass girls around. I’ve seen it happen – there are things they do.

I was now living in a mostly Muslim area, whereas before that I had lived in other places which were mostly white. I have no problem with either as I have a mixed-race family.

It was peaceful and lovely at first in my new area as I was right by my friends and it was fun. Until one day me and my friends went to a canal, right at the bottom of my street. My friends and I were 14 at the time.

There were a gang of Muslim men that looked to be between 17 and 30. They had said hello and were being polite, so we started being friendly back. One came over, picking me up from behind and shouting “fresh white P****’”.

I was disgusted and told him to put me down — which he refused to do. So in the end one of the other lads told him to put me down. They still wouldn’t let us walk off, they had been pulling on our arms, trying to give us vodka and asking us to join them at a party. We said no. At no point did these men ask for our ages.

“We were harassed (and) called dirty white trash, white whore …”


Toni Bugle & Catherine Shakdam on Austrian President’s Muslim Headscarf Idea for All Women

Toni Bugle & Catherine Shakdam on Austrian President’s Muslim Headscarf Idea for All Women

Austrian President, Alexander Van der Bellen, recently suggested — without a trace of irony — that if “Islamophobia” continues to rise:

“A day will come when we will have to ask every woman to wear a headscarf in solidarity with those who wear it for religious reasons.” (Translated from German.)

RT (formerly “Russia Today”) invited Toni Bugle (Mothers Against Radical Islam & Sharia — MARIAS) and Catherine Shakdam* (Director of the Islamic pro Sharia, pro Iran, Shafaqna Institute for Middle Eastern Studies ) to respond.

3 minute video:


* Excerpts from a recent interview with Catherine Shakdam:

“The West is blaming Islam for the violence it itself professes.”

“… the West has equated and conflated JIHAD with violence, bloodshed, imperialism, and injustice. The word JIHAD has been stripped of its true meaning so that western capitals could sell their wars to a gullible public and in one smooth movement of the hand position themselves holier and greater than thou!”

“Nowadays the public associate JIHAD with terrorism and of course Daesh (ISIS). Such was the plan all along.

“As long as Islam and Muslims can be blamed for all the violence that befell the world since 2001 then no party will question America’s neocons.

“… The West wants control over the Islamic world for the riches its nations house but also out of fear that Islam one day will come to challenge its imperial complex.

… Islam, true Islam is the threat for it offers freedom and empowerment.

… Iran more than any other nations in the world understands liberation since it enacted its own in 1979 by establishing the Governance of the Jurist. (Editor: This is a reference to Theocratic/Sharia law as advocated by Ayatollah Ruhollah Khomeini, founder of the Islamic Republic of Iran)


2012: cardboard cutout of Ayatollah Ruhollah Khomeini. Celebrating anniversary of the Iranian Revolution